hmmm its late.. lemme get back to this one, i thought i had more time, and im sick and im tired. but as for the foto?
i thought it was colorful
and fruity.

mmk so i didnt mean to avoid this THAT long but ive been busy helping a buncha missionaries translate/coordinate their excursions throughout the poor districts of Lima, Peru.

so.
ill back things up a bit and start from before i started this blog...

well the reason i wanted to actually start a blog was to
post photos, thoughts, but then God put it on my heart
to share His thoughts, His views, and what others could receive through me.

okokok
so to really back things up ill say that first God put it on
my heart to start doing devotions in the morning. well, not like that.
to wake up and pray early early in the morning
and although i wont go as far as to say im not a morning person,
im not not a morning person either, get it? weeell i prefer not to
wake up early unless im going snowboarding/surfing
ya dig?

mmk now that u all are with me,
i started praying and heres what i started receiving-

As the new wine is found in the cluster,

And one says,

‘Do not destroy it,

For a blessing is in it,’

So will I do for My servants’ sake,

That I may not destroy them all.

I will bring forth descendants from Jacob,

And from Judah an heir of My mountains;

My elect shall inherit it,

And My servants shall dwell there.

Sharon shall be a fold of flocks,

And the Valley of Achor a place for herds to lie down,

For My people who have sought Me.

Isaiah 65:8-10

sweet. so what does THAT mean?

well cool thing is that is EXACTLY the question to ask,

or more specifically,

what does it mean to YOU?

Gods a bit mysterious in ways that we cant really

pinpoint exact meanings for many things

but can mean many things for many people in a

variety of different situations.

so what did i get out of it?

well first off,

it starts as new wine is found in a cluster,

or as the niv version says

"As when juice is still found in a cluster of grapes"

so weve got to be juicy,

not like those sweatpants that say juicy on the butt

but what exactly IS juice? its the substance of the fruit.

the very essence of the fruit.

and how the Bible says you will know them by their fruit,

how much more should we have

the JUICE? u feel me on this one?

its like our gasoline, our kerosene our rocket fuel that keeps us goin.

sometimes we are the blessing in a wicked generation

and its time that we have that juice

that substance, that fruit-

that we can plead on behalf of that wicked generation like moses

interceded for the children of israel when God wanted

to erradicate that generation and start over.

also that when this passage talks about the mountains

and that His servants are dwelling there,

it has a lot more meaning than poetic symmetry.

the point which i got is that when you fight,

you have to stand your ground, period.

when you have refuge you have to use it, and its your protection

when we are in spiritual warfare and are getting attacked

from all sides we have to understand that we sometimes

arent positioned well and have to run back to our shelter and our refuge-

His holy mountain and have to fight from there.

it didnt say that we will stay there temporarily

or will be passing through His mountain,

no.

it said they will DWELL or live there. there we will find rest,

there we can fight with His support

there we will not, cannot, and must not forget He is our fortress,

and leaving His fortitude and going our own way

and not through His will only result in hurt and injuries for us.

we must never forget about the Lord, abandon the Lord.

He never leaves us nor forsakes us.

its us that choose to leave Him when we are enticed

and drawn away by our own desires.

its with this that we stand and fight with His spiritual armor,

and with the humility to know that its only through Him

we stand and we stand as one: the body of Christ with Him

as the head, the peak, and the commander in chief.

and so we march as one on His holy mountain.

you know, they say you gotta know who you are before you know where you´re gonna go...

thing is, for me it was reversed. i knew where i was headed, i knew where i was going too- the thing was i didnt know who i was.

identity. now theres a $.10 word. anybody can tell you what it means and you can get pretty much the same answer, but to get someone to tell u what it means to them is another story.

you find out a lot about yourself when you travel. everyone should travel just for that reason, even if its just for a few days. now if you travel alone, you find out quite a bit more about yourself. hah

ive learned quite a bit about myself- Gods been graceful and faithful to show me who i am, and who He sees through His eyes.
so who am i? no no no. thats not my point, i know who i am. the purpose is to prompt yourself to think, to search and find yourself out- through His eyes.

you know a while back names meant a lot. now its a trendy thing to name their kids after fruit, seasons, months of the year, or if you´re lucky: Moon Unit 2.
names used to be your identity. who you were, and your character. that would really horrible to have the name Whiner, wouldnt it?
no but even moreso, it showed people who you were going to be, and what lies ahead of you-
your future.

all of us are born a "Jacob", our sin nature. its when we wrestle out of our own desires and search out our identity that we are then known as "Israel". Jacob was talked about when he faltered, when he was in his lows, when he wasn´t trusting in God. Israel was talked about as God´s chosen one. God made His covenant with Israel, and Israel was given a land of promise, and inheiritance, and a future.Thus, when we wrestle out of our own selfish and old desires away to our new identity, we find much more than a name, but a whole new life.
It is then that we are really born, that we really start living.

God gives each and everyone of us a new name, because He only sees the best in us, even when we´re at our very worst. its only when we seek after Him and our future through Him that we´re given the opportunity to live in the light and be the very best "you" that you were meant to be.

wrestle with that thought for a moment.
now seek it out with all you are, that you might find real purpose.
the opportunity to REALLY live.


HELLO
my name is Brian


what´s YOURS?