Honor + Humility

people sometimes forget how intertwined honor and humility are.. if honor was peanut butter, humility would be the jelly. if honor was the tick, humility would be the tock.
so intertwined are the two that it really takes away from the nature of one when the other is removed.

anyway, well i was singing some songs, when it hits me about the Holy Spirit, how much honor is lacking towards the Holy Spirit when we are wanting God to move, speak, etc.

but as helper, guide and friend the Holy Spirit wants us to give the appropriate honor so that He can move like He wants to. you can't put Him in a box, or draw lines of limitation over Him.

i said i'm sorry. i wanted to honor the Holy Spirit, to humble myself and let Him flow. be my teacher like those in other countries and have to rely on You, i want to honor You.
then i saw a small sized classroom moderately filled with students from many different backgrounds. all over the world, and different ages, i heard His voice speak to me telling me-- since i've humbled myself and let Him teach how He wants to, and me just be the willing student, He'll show me things many won't see and learn things that others won't learn.
simply because there's examples that He wants to make, showing that He wants to do not just that which was in Jesus' time, but there's about 2000 years that He needs to catch up on, bringing miracles signs and wonders into the 21st century, and show not only whats possible, but what should be standard for all of us.
so where does it start?
humbling yourself and honoring the teacher.

class is now in session.

Fragrance.

What's your favorite smell? or what fragrance do you wear out?

you ever wonder what Jesus smells like? or how when sacrifices are made, that they offer up a sweet smelling aroma to God?? in 1 cor 13 it says that among faith, hope and love, that love is the greatest.
likewise, i've seen that there's an aroma anytime a sacrifice is made, as well as in worship. however the greater of these 2 is worship.

i was over at the prayer chapel the other night and while no one was around, started jumping around, singing and shouting, whirling and dancing.
All of a sudden i started smelling distinct scents in different parts of the chapel.
in 1 part of the room was an unreal vanilla scent that was gentle enough to not come on too strong, but enticing enough make me go around sniffing until i had an overload of air in the lungs.

after a couple minutes, i noticed another smell, and it this time it was of flowers, crazy huh?? it was floral, but wasnt like smelling roses. it was a bit stronger, and much more refreshing and fruity. how good it was to have those smells, and then it hit me, my worship was giving off these fragrant smells to Him, that when the air gets stale, its a breath of fresh air to smell something so new and alive. So excited God gets to have us liven up heaven and bring an element of freshness, a pleasant aroma to heaven!
that was something that left me wanting more.. haha

the next morning, i ended up comin in while music was playing. i started singing and felt outside my body. u ever have that feeling that you were bigger than you really are?? anyway i saw Gods throne room and started dancing and shouting and praising all around it, over and over and it was amazing.
here's where it got interesting.. then this living creature came up to me, face to face kinda like in narnia when the lion was right in front of the children, and it started speaking to me without opening its mouth. well it would speak and would be saying holy holy holy, but i knew that it was speaking to me while it was saying these things, and it said, He loves you. Oh how He loves you. He loves you so much.
that was pretty nuts. it hit me that others knew how much He loved me, that He'd send others to tell me just for fun.

you know growing up how when you hear how much you're a special little guy from your mom, or what a champ you are from your dad that you start to have that stuff roll off your back? or how it kinda becomes less and less meaningful, as if you're becoming a little more and more desensitized from it.
it was in this that the Father would send others to show me how much He loves to see me delight in knowing of His love, no matter who it comes from :)

Best friend.

Ok so this was an interesting experience. i was sitting on a rock with Jesus, this rock was on the ledge of a waterfall, and it overlooked a huuuuuge valley/rainforest, like jurassic park or narnia. sitting there made me really reflect on what it is thats motivating me, what i'm pressing towards. i would ask who's there with me, who's out there keeping me in check, and helping me as i walk along?
then i look over at my best friend.

Purpose. where do we derive it? from where should it spring, and that question ricochets back at me with the rhetorical search for identity.
it's out of this place that i can see clearly the world through lenses which are pure, and find out what i was made to do, and how i can bring what i have to the table, not see what i can take for myself.

its not about gaining, it never was. gaining comes with the journey, because where you go definitely has its own prerequisites. and you can get equipped from wherever/whatever you allow to speak into you, your life.

and then i see that i'm not doing this just for me, my family, my friends. but for generations to come, for the kingdom to come, for the sake of who i am, which is me being who i am, and sharing my favor and advantages with others so they can enjoy as well. but most of all its for Him, because i am who i am because of who He is, and i am free to the furthermost extent of universe, beyond time, space, limits, lines, boundaries to be me and to be unshackled. and from the place of freedom in Him comes this identity so rich and so peaceful like a song, that causes me to think, act, do out of LOVE.

i am here to love and to receive love
the meaning of life has never been simpler

what this looks life for each individual is so different and wonderful it is beautiful, like a mosaic that comes together in beauty what seemed so different and contrasting.

He is my best friend and He makes up what i lack from so much the world can't offer me. when i am weak i am strong, when i am going through a trial, i am triumphing. and all because i chose to receive what He has for me, his <3.